Life Rafts

The list of books I want to read is as big as the list of movies and TV shows I want to watch on Netflix! I’ve recently heard of this writer named John Solomon. I might want to read something of his in the future. And I’ve also been depressed before and think something he said is absolutely true. Solomon said, “Depressed people often stick pins into their own life rafts. The conscious mind can intervene. One is not helpless.”

Everybody’s Better

Back when I was younger, I’d be around other people and noticed something about them in all my interactions with them. I realized each time in many ways all of these people were better than me in some way, either they knew things I did not or were able to do things I could not. Because of this, being around them made me feel insecure and small. But with time, I realized something. I also had knowledge and abilities that were uniquely my own, as if they were tailor-made for me, so I shouldn’t feel inadequacy around other people. Instead, I should look at them as a vast resource, like an encyclopedia, full of things I have yet to discover and as they improve, so will I and vice versa. So, nowadays, I believe it is sad when one person passes or people are unable to express themselves, because a valuable compendium of information is seemingly lost forever.

The Secret

“don’t worry, nobody has the
beautiful lady, not really, and

nobody has the strange and
hidden power, nobody is
exceptional or wonderful or
magic, they only seem to be
it’s all a trick, an in, a con,
don’t buy it, don’t believe it.
the world is packed with
billions of people whose lives
and deaths are useless and
when one of these jumps up
and the light of history shines
upon them, forget it, it’s not
what it seems, it’s just
another act to fool the fools

there are no strong men, there
are no beautiful women.
at least, you can die knowing
and you will have
the only possible victory

-Charles Bukowski

Billy Joel

I have bonded with some people because they like the music of Billy Joel and I like the music of Billy Joel. But we wouldn’t be able to bond over this commonality and enjoy so much of his music if he succeeded in doing something in his past, because before he made it big, he attempted suicide. After his band’s first album flopped and a romantic relationship ended, he attempted suicide by choosing to drink furniture polish instead of bleach because it would probably taste better. The attempt failed and he went to achieve success and ended up marrying a model, Christie Brinkley. So what I think this story shows is how unfortunate it is many artists have ended their lives or have died prematurely, leaving us asking what would have happened if they were still alive. And it shows great things can take time and what other people say about you doesn’t matter, it is what you say about yourself! That is what defeats you ultimately.


I’ve been thinking lately of how some people get exploited and treated terribly in relationships and how some people get catfished or fooled in other ways. I believe the exploiters are not self-confident people. They like to prey on a person’s weakness, their uncertainties and fear. They have no chance among someone with high self-esteem. But as people doubt themselves, these exploiters rise to the top. Persons that do not know where they are headed or their value have no means to resist their promises and demands.